January 25 - Laly Zambrana

Never have I prayed Psalm 6 with such desperation as I have this past month and a half.

You see, in the beginning of November I had a posterior hip replacement which I thought would be a pretty quick recovery, especially since I watched all the YouTube videos that showed all these patients walking normally within a few weeks.

Not me… I’ve been living in excruciating pain since I had the surgery. Mind you I cannot take the pain medications I was given as it causes other health issues.

Recovery feels like it’s going to be a lifetime. Or no recovery at all. I did not expect anything like this. I still struggle to walk. Dressing myself is quite frustrating. I cannot get in or out of my bed without help. Lifting the leg I had surgery is torture. The frustration, desperation and depression has begun to set in and some days worse than others. I confess the pity parties can easily over take me within minutes and can last a while. That’s until my mouth and heart whispers the words of Psalm 6.

1 Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath.

2 Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint; heal me, Lord, for my bones are in agony.

3 My soul is in deep anguish. How long, Lord, how long?

4 Turn, Lord, and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love.

5 Among the dead no one proclaims your name. Who praises you from the grave?

6 I am worn out from my groaning. All night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears.

7 My eyes grow weak with sorrow; they fail because of all my foes.

8 Away from me, all you who do evil, for the Lord has heard my weeping.

9 The Lord has heard my cry for mercy; the Lord accepts my prayer.

10 All my enemies will be overwhelmed with shame and anguish; they will turn back and suddenly be put to shame.

With these words, especially Verse 9 is where my hope clings to and it lifts me out of the pit of despair for HE HEARS MY CRIES FOR MERCY AND HE ACCEPTS MY PRAYERS.

Our Lord gets my mind off of what I’m feeling physically emotionally and mentally. My tears stop, my frustration and fears subside and the pain regresses for a while. Why? Because He heard and He accepts.